Saturday, August 1, 2009

Deployment- Start

Things have gotten much better between Cole & I, we're taking things one day at a time.

Yesterday was D-Day, we left the house at 2:30am to be at post by 3am, said our "see ya laters" around 7am. It was a rough day, after that I went cleaned a little bit, took care of some paperwork for him. Took a nap, Doug put the tv in the truck then i finished cleaning and turned in the apt keys.

I just now have to keep myself busy for the next year and believe it will go by quick and that Aug 2010 will be here before I know it!

Keep Cole & everyone else in your prayers for their safety over there, let them all return home safe and sound, the way the arrive over there!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Sunday, June 6, 2009

Things are getting a lil better, haven't cried in a few days which is a good improvement. My attitude about things right now is just "whatever", all I can do is hope and pray for things to fix themselves and that the right path will be chosen. If not then I suppose that is life, unfortunaly I've lost my appite for food for the most part, I eat maybe 1 meal a day and its hardly anything at all. I'm just never hungry and I dont eat if I'm not hungry, I know its not good or healthy but I can't eat if I'm not hungry, I'll make myself sick.

Had an interesting weekend, Friday got off work, Doug came and picked me up and then he wound up taking a guest for an hour and half while the guest tired to convince him not to join the army (too late), it was actually kinda funny but I was here for an hour and half after I got off work, so we didn't leave till 12:30am. Went to Doug's to crash for the night, got a few hours of sleep, headed to seattle with Cole, Doug and Jason for the game. The game was pretty good, M's won!!!!! Then we spent the rest of the afternoon in Seattle, with Dan and Amber and had a pretty good time. Although there were lots of things going through my head, i pushed them aside and tried to have a good time. Amber and I had a good talk about things going on with relationships and delpoyments. After Seattle, we went to Dan and Ambers to play a game, and Doug & Cole won, go figure when it comes to movies. Finally about midnight we headed back to Olympia. Had a few hours of not so good sleep, so Now I'm sitting here at work, bored and extermly tired. Praying the day goes by fast but Lord knows it going to go slow.

My heart is still hurting and i fight everyday not to cry but I told myself I've cried too much and all it does make me loose sleep. Just wish I could see the future and see what God has in store for me so I know how to prepare my heart but unfortunaly we can't do that.
I guess, I'll keep taking things one day at a time.

Monday, June 1, 2009

June 1, 2009

Cole and I are no longer together .

I'm going to use this time apart to think and refocus. Taking time for myself, working on things that I need to get done to be successful in life. I'm going to look into finally going back to school to finish my degree, I've been working on my driving & I am hoping to be able to take the test soon. Also working on paying off some financial issues.

I am going to look at getting a gym membership and getting myself back into shape and healthy so hopefully that will help with sleep issues. Plus, its just something I need to do.

Hopefully, taking this time apart will help hearts grow fonder. If we are truly meant to be together then we will be, its in God's hands and he will show us that path of life we need and its up to us to take that path or not.