Things are getting a lil better, haven't cried in a few days which is a good improvement. My attitude about things right now is just "whatever", all I can do is hope and pray for things to fix themselves and that the right path will be chosen. If not then I suppose that is life, unfortunaly I've lost my appite for food for the most part, I eat maybe 1 meal a day and its hardly anything at all. I'm just never hungry and I dont eat if I'm not hungry, I know its not good or healthy but I can't eat if I'm not hungry, I'll make myself sick.
Had an interesting weekend, Friday got off work, Doug came and picked me up and then he wound up taking a guest for an hour and half while the guest tired to convince him not to join the army (too late), it was actually kinda funny but I was here for an hour and half after I got off work, so we didn't leave till 12:30am. Went to Doug's to crash for the night, got a few hours of sleep, headed to seattle with Cole, Doug and Jason for the game. The game was pretty good, M's won!!!!! Then we spent the rest of the afternoon in Seattle, with Dan and Amber and had a pretty good time. Although there were lots of things going through my head, i pushed them aside and tried to have a good time. Amber and I had a good talk about things going on with relationships and delpoyments. After Seattle, we went to Dan and Ambers to play a game, and Doug & Cole won, go figure when it comes to movies. Finally about midnight we headed back to Olympia. Had a few hours of not so good sleep, so Now I'm sitting here at work, bored and extermly tired. Praying the day goes by fast but Lord knows it going to go slow.
My heart is still hurting and i fight everyday not to cry but I told myself I've cried too much and all it does make me loose sleep. Just wish I could see the future and see what God has in store for me so I know how to prepare my heart but unfortunaly we can't do that.
I guess, I'll keep taking things one day at a time.
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